My Presence ...

Well, for many of you the title might be enough to know about what am I going to speak about, for others there may be raised eyebrows and several question marks, thats what i anticipate!!!

We often ask the question to ourselves, what is the meaning of my existence in this world? And then get the answer, "I have many things to do and many goals to achieve".," People should know me", "My name should be listed in XYZ lists", and so on. In pursuit of fulfilling these wishes we just give our whole lives.

I want people to recognize me, I should be famous. My existence should have a meaning in other people's thinking. My thoughts should be acceptable and I should get respect from others. And at the minute level, people should call me or even acknowledge me. I often see people turning grumpy when not called to or even when not waved at.

Reason ? My answer to all this is Ego! My sense of self is satisfied when I get recognition. When people say good things or bad things about me, The Ego gets an Identity. All my efforts are diverted towards proving this identity, proving my presence by the Ego. It always keeps the image intact come what may. For the same purpose I may even go against my well-wishers.

All of the negative emotions like sorrow, anger, misery are the ways of Ego to keep alive the identity. If this identity is alive, there is no scope for me to awaken and be alert against the Ego. Even rejection, despair, feeling unwanted, lonely are all by products of Ego!

I keep calling people, friends so that I keep them informed about my Presence. I hurt people, or help them, take charge of their lives of give my charge to them and keep reminding them the same. I disturb others in whatever they are doing, make jokes in an ongoing lectures, give information about what things I have done so that it may be registered in people's minds. I publish blogs so that people recognize my writings. I take pride about things people say for me. Even I need consolation so as to feed my ego, and for that I remain dejected or depressed, low on confidence, etc.

Thus Ego has to just trigger this thought of "My Presence" and its work of keeping me asleep is done. Now I have to wake up and just know My Presence IS.

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Listen ...

Listening - Now who does not know the meaning of LISTENING!!!
Answer is ... all those in sorrow, disease, stress, etc. all kinds of negative experiences.

Listening is to hear while being present. Another way to put it would be: hearing 100%, with awareness.

Now you would think what is this crap. We always hear things 100%, and we are always aware about same. But, Are you ? I'll come to the point directly. When I say I listen to people 100% I need to check whether I am listening to them or am I just listening to myself (even when they are still speaking). It sounds funny but this is true for 99% of the world and I don't know where the other 1% is.

When I am in conversation with a person, my mind(EGO) is always giving judgments about the person and his style, etc. Instead of listening to him/her I start listening to my mind, which goes on speaking its own story in the background. Most of the time predicting what the opposite person is gonna speak. And sometimes that turns out to be correct and my EGO gets some sense of success. And the mind goes on louder and faster, which leaves no scope for me to even hear the opposite person, I just make a plastic face as if I were listening and was very much interested in the content of the talk. We just don't care or don't respect the opposite person at all. Most of our such victims turn out to be our families. The non-listening then becomes the cause of communication gaps(obviously), misunderstandings, stress, and what not.

Well the outcomes can go beyond this and I won't go deeper into that now, as the topic is LISTENING.

Another aspect to Listening is to listen from something. This means, I already have a predefined conversation about a person. And as soon as a dialog between both of us starts, I listen from that predefined point of view. I perceive the whole conversation as per my past experience with that person, ruling out the possibility that there might be a newer and more fresh concept to be shared. Here too I just listen to my EGO!

Listening also applies to situations, which can also be called perception. I find listening to be a better suiting word. As per our listening to the situation we react.

When I am listening 100%, I am always at peace, in harmony. Life becomes beautiful and positive. Even nature helps me in doing so.

Listening 100% and Listening from nothing (having no predefined perceptions) is the way to Live fully!

Definitions .....

The present world functions on definitions.

• Characters of people - predefined
• Handling any situation - predefined
• My Behavior too - predefined
• Way of life - predefined

All these definitions are not taught by someone but I make them myself in a period of time since I started learning by perception of the world or adopting some definitions from others definitions. My thinking for my life then is always based on these definitions. I always stick to these and stop myself from growing or learning.

As I come into adulthood, I start thinking that I know most of the things, which is to say (unconsciously) "I have defined all the things that concern me" and then my mechanical life starts. It can be successful, but is a dead one. I just have the same routine for years and years and my definitions never change, or the better way to put "I don't let my definitions change". I perceive people as per my definitions about them, I always listen to them from something. I always think that I know what the opposite person has to say. And that may be the case, but then I am not listening to that person but to my own definition about the person, from past.

My growth stops as I have closed myself to all the knowledge that could have been gained from the nature, world, universe.

The DEFINITIONS are the Prison BARS that I live with and yet am not aware of. Again the work of EGO appears! It just keeps this prison invisible from me and I feel I am living an Ideal Life!

I know where my Life is going and I am doing just great !!! I am Living my life Fully.

But AM I REALLY ?

I..

Who or What is I ?

I = Image of me.
Most effective weapon of EGO.
"I" is not me but the Image that I have created about me for projecting in front of the world. "I" am this or that, my likes are these and "I" do not like that, "I" behave in this way in such situations, etc.. are all definitions or boundaries that the Ego has created for me.

The Ego creates all these definitions so as to prove its existence in form of "I". In this process of proving my existence I work my whole life, running here and there for just projecting a bigger image of me in front of the world.

My Point here is "To become aware of these definitions about me created by the Ego and how the Ego functions to make me believe that I AM those Definitions" where as in reality I am not.

"I JUST AM ..."
There is no need to prove my Existence. In the process of this PROVING I create so much disturbance in the world that I just lose the Essence of my BEING. All the negativity is the result of this act of proving one's existence.

.. to be contd...

Jonatahan Livingston Seagull...Some inspiring quotes ...

• Heaven is not a place, and it is not a time. Heaven is being perfect.
• You will begin to touch heaven, Jonathan, in the moment that you touch perfect speed. And that isn’t flying a thousand miles an hour, or a million, or flying at the speed of light. Because any number is a limit, and perfection doesn’t have limits. Perfect speed, my son, is being there.
• Heaven isn’t a place or a time, because place and time are so very meaningless. Heaven is…”
  
• You didn’t need faith to fly, you needed to understand flying.
• The gulls who scorn perfection for the sake of travel go nowhere, slowly. Those who put aside travel for the sake of perfection go anywhere, instantly.
• If our friendship depends on things like space and time, then when we finally overcome space and time, we’ve destroyed our own brotherhood! But overcome space, and all we have left is Here. Overcome time, and all we have left is Now. And in the middle of Here and Now, don’t you think that we might see each other once or twice?
• Break the chains of your thought, and you break the chains of your body, too…
• Don’t believe what your eyes are telling you. All they show is limitation. Look with your understanding, find out what you already know, and you’ll see the way
  

The EGO ...

I always wonder ... what the Ego really is ! Get to see different forms of it and yet can not see those forms when they r acting ...

So many aspects, may be writing this blog is also being forced by my ego!!! So lets see what my Ego has to say about "Ego".

EGO: A False sense of self.

This gives rise to another question, What is Self? I won't go into that rite now as I am yet to realise that. Well that doesn't mean I know or have realised the EGO either!!

Prooving my presence everywhere and always ... work of Ego.
Working for a sense of achievement, fame .. Ego ?
Showing Off .. ofcourse Ego!..
Being right always ...
Keeping my image in front of others...

Not just the visible one...
"I do Not have an Ego" is also a greater EGO and more dangerous ... as I may be under the impression that I am Egoless .. but in Fact I MAY be carrying more Ego than anyone ...
Or even .. saying that I am an Egoist ...

So what is the work of Ego ... keep us blinded from whatever is true...
Something like Matrix, the Ego blinds us from the truth and shows us a world that is already judged and defined,built on rules, the world as it wants to see ...

When we identify with the Ego, the predefined and judged world is what we see around us and thats where the beauty of Life ends.

Now what here is the judgemental world ? ..
Where everything depends on pre-defined perception as defined by the Ego ...
Whatever we look at or whatever is happening everything gets a name or property ..
For eg. This thing is good/bad ... What I am doing right now is not proper, etc. etc..
Everything depends on judgements which are defined already and are baseless.

Wherever there's anything that can open our eye's to the truth, the Ego would divert us back to its judgemental world.

...Pending ...

Some random lines to ponder on ...

inspire...


Live Life, STOP Analyzing it.

Dur Reh Paaye Jo Humse, Dum Kaha Manzil mein Hai...

Ab Jo bhi Ho, Shola banke patthar hai Pighlana

Tu Chal yuhi ab subah shaam, Rukna Jhukna nahi tera kaam...


abstraction..

Ab mujhe hosh ki Duniya mein tamasha na bana,
Tune Deewana banaya toh main deewana bana...

Shaheedon ki mazhaaro par lagenge har baras mele,
Watan par mitnewalo ka baaki nishaan hoga!

Being the One is Just Like falling in Love,
No one can tell but U know it...

Deewano ki ye baatein, deewane jaante hain..
Jalne mein kya mazaa hai .. Parwane jaante hain ...


Life ...

Jeevan k Din Chhote sahi, Hum bhi Bade Dilwale ...
Kal ki humein Fursat kahaa, Sochey jo hum matwaale...

K Mar k bhi kisiko yaad aayenge..
Kisike aasuon mein muskurayenge...
Kisiko ho na ho humein to aitbaar ....